:: oh what a friday! ::
bakit ba every friday na lang feel so bored na lang lagi....tuloy nagiging lalong emotional ako and lalo lang akong nagse-self-pity.....why there are people who are so insensitive? waaaaah! hey life bakit sobra kang nananadya sa'kin....I'm really getting bored with my life, with myself, with everything....I admit I am full of blessings pero still may kulang pa rin sa'kin, still I'm not happy....I can give up everything I have now in exchange of one thing that will really really make me happy totally....alam mo 'yon Lord and I've been asking you that for yearsssss......I want to blame one person sa pagiging sobrang hindi ko pagtitiwala ngayon sa ibang tao, lalo na sa mga lalaki, magsama-sama kayong lahat....I can live without you men and I will prove that to all of you....I don't know, bakit ganon, mas gusto niyong hine-hate kayo kesa minamahal kayo?!?!?! ewan, siguro nga laging maling lalaki lang 'yong lagi kong napipili.....that's why I love the song of Kelly Clarkson, because of you, I want to sing that loud and shout to the whole world na 'yon ang nararamdaman ko ngayon....down to zero na naman ang self-confident ko, now sobrang up ang thermometer ng pagkakaroon ko ng inferiority complex.....it's true that you cannot please everybody, even if you have shown to them your trueself, at kahit minsan sobrang ako na 'yong nag-a-adjust para lang to prove myself tp them na hindi ako mahirap maging kaibigan....I feel so left alone and unloved now, as in now.....haaaaaaaaaay buhay! dapat masaya ako eh, pero bakit ganon? masaya ako alam ko 'yon at pinipilit ko, pero still bakit 'yong mga taong malalapit sa'kin ngayon at tinuturing kong mga bestfriends, bakit still may doubt pa rin ako sa friendship nila.....hindi ko matanggal sa isip ko na, am I being taken advantage of? totoo ba 'yong pinapakita nila sa'kin? pinagpipilitan ko lang ba 'yong sarili ko sa kanila? God, I know that I should always love and befriend everyone unconditionally......pero bakit sa huli nasasaktan pa rin ako......Lord, please teach me more to love them without expecting anything in return, I know I don't have to prove myself to them my worth being as a friend to them....it's their choice if they really treat me as their friend/sister, but I always know one thing and you too know that Lord, that I'm just being true with myself and true sa lahat ng pinapakita ko sa kanila.....I am a sweet person and a very thoughtful person, pero sana maramdaman ko rin sa kanila kahit konti lang......I've been stubborn in the past but I know for a fact na sobrang laki ng pinagbago ko, and I really tried so hard to show to everyone that I'm not anymore masungit, mataray, intimidating, not approacheable........hey guys! c'mon, can you not judge me with your first impression?!?!!?! hey! I'm just human, and sorry kung ganito ako, I love myself and God created me like this, it's up to you if you'll accept me or not........
hey sorry! this is too much of a sentiments and really heartbreaking, but at this very moment, 'yan lahat ang nararamdaman ko and really can't help myself guys telling you all of these..........
tata for now! need to restore my energy......and need to pick up the pieces na nahulog na naman sa pagkatao ko.....
8:01 PM
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gReyZziE
*a simple gal but with a big heart, music lover & loves to sing, a dreamer *winks*, loves strawberry, loves the color blue, loves my family, a serious person but with a bit of sense of humour....
works as a Marketing Assistant in a software company
currently lives in Dubai, United Arab Emirates
Interests
singing
baking
surfing the net
movies
books
mp3s
Favorite Movies
A Walk to Remember
I am Sam
Pearl Harbour
Bring it On
Wonderful Life (Korean drama series)
Favourite Music
Accoustics
Ballads
R&B
Revivals
Religious
Favourite Books
Dan Brown
James Patterson
Paulo Coelho
Purpose Driven Life
lastly is BIBLE
Links
Daily Reading & Meditation
My Hometown
News on UAE
FriEndSter
My Favorite Online Recipes
Credits
I'm glowing inside because of YOU...
my first entry for the year 2006....
missing blog...
though I don't have that much kwento, update ko na...
last thursday was declared Holiday here in UAE, as...
it's been weeks since I have entered my last post....
feel ko lang mag-post ulit today, kahit 6 days na ...
after 2 months.....
weekend na naman!!!
tik....tak....tik....tak......5pm
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